Welcome Fall!

So, I totally forgot my password and what email address I used for my account and was unable to post anything. That was my fault and I take full credit for it. I had a very busy Summer and just let my blog go on the back of my mind. I guess that is what to expect when you are a woman on a journey following God's will.

Recap of the Summer:
I took that psychology class at NNU and got only a B. So, I was not able to get into the nursing program there. Which is good, because God had many other things in store for me. I was of course devastated that I didn't get into a nursing program, again. So, I did what I do best, dive into the world that surrounds me without thinking about the pain. (I, as a woman, tend to do that a lot. I put my true feeling away and put on a facade. Why do we do that? Why do I do that? No wonder guys have a hard time understanding us. We are so difficult to understand. We expect them to know what we are thinking even though we tell them we are not.) I went to a summer camp called Commission with our high school youth group to Mountain Home. It was fun and humbling. I was part of the environmental group. We took on a house site and cleaned it up for the tenant who lived there. It was amazing to help them out and to learn to help others in need. At the beginning of the week we were told that if we, as leaders, needed anything to not hesitate to ask. So in the middle of the week I was in need of a hot shower. So, Danika and I asked if we could get a shower. Later we found out that no camp counselor has ever been to a staff house in the 11 years it has been open. During our shower we got to stay and participate with the staff. At the end we got to pray for a fellow staffer and his family. It was one of the most intense prayer I have partaken in. When I got back to my tent I was having trouble sleeping, so I started to talk to God. That night he asked me when was I going let him drive my life? He then proceeded show me how stubborn I am and how I just kept doing what I wanted to do and not ask God to guide me. He then said that is why I have been denied nursing school 7 times. He was finally talking to me because I was ready to listen. So, I gave God control and asked him what was next. All he would tell me was that I was to be still and know that he is God. Hard as it was to swallow and wait I did. The next day, I had people come up to me asking if I ever thought about doing something with YWAM. Of course, I have thought about it again, but didn't really think that much of it. I waited and waited and still got the same reaction from God. "Be still and know that I am God." Psalms 46:10 Next mission trip I went on was to San Fransisco with YWAM and our youth group. The very first day we get there the verse they say they want us to rely on is that same exact verse, be still and know that I am God. God sure knows how to let me know what he wants me to do. So, the whole trip I tried to be still. While we were there they gave us all a packet of YWAM information of all the schools they have. So, I thought I would make a list of places I would like to go some day with YWAM. By the end of the week that we were there I got nothing. So I came home knowing that I stayed still and I know that he is God and he will come through for me one day. I also was there to help my high school students out with evangelism. The next day I woke up sick as a dog. I didn't like the fact that I had all this stuff. I couldn't eat or drink. I just laid in bed almost all day. I knew at that point my life had to involve some sort of mission work into it. I started thinking about what I really wanted to do with my life since obviously God had other plans for me. So, I started to think what I would like to do. I realized how much I truly loved French and how I love high school so much. So what better than becoming a high school French teacher! So, I started looking into changing my major and signing up for my fall classes. When I decided this I was very at peace with this decision. It is also good, because on the summer breaks I can go and do mission trips. In August, our church held a live viewing of the Global Leadership Summit. It was amazing. The very first speaker was Bill Hybels and he did his talk on the power of a whisper from God. He then gave some whispers that God might be wanting to tell us. He asked that we write down all the ones that we felt like God might be saying something to me. I wrote down three that were what I felt towards me. The first was to make the hard decision. The second was to trust God in everything. And the third was to put God first. I could understand the last two, but the first one I was not sure of. What hard decision? The next speaker that I liked was Christine Caine. She is the Hillsong pastor and she is also a leader of a few different organizations. She is from Australia and I really was interested in one of her organizations that help stop human trafficking. Nothing really talked to me from that point on. I started to ask God to reveal these three whispers and to let me know if I wrote them down right. He answered me with Be still. So, I started to get a little annoyed and didn't really sleep that night. The next day, I went to this summit and got nothing really. Just an opportunity to send Toms shoes an email about myself. It is funny if you were there! God spoke to me during T.D. Jakes prayer. He said, "Go to Australia!" I wasn't sure if I heard him right, so he showed me it again! The second time knocked me off my feet. I knew this was the hard decision to follow. I started to look into the YWAM bases that I wanted to go to. The only school that I wrote down from Australia was in Perth and it was a Birth Attendant School. It is also 11 months long and I will be traveling to 3 different countries during this time. It was totally God. The time it started and ended went around some of the important things I wanted to be apart of like my girls graduating school in 2012! I come back 3 days or so before their graduation! I was super excited. So I applied and now I am waiting to hear back from them to see if I got accepted.
Fall semester started right before my birthday. I turned 25 this year and my dad and step mom were able to come out and celebrate it with me. It was one of the best birthdays yet. I even was able to tell them about my past and grow even deeper in our relationship! It was a very healing moment for me. This semester is suppose to be my fun semester because I didn't really want to take core classes this time around. Boy was I wrong! Don't get me wrong some of them our truly fun, but there are some that are a lot harder than what I thought they would be. I am doing more work and studying than I have in all my other semesters. It is getting a little easier, but still I am growing more and more tired. It could also be that I am also working nights and going to school during the day?

Now that I changed my password and email, I should be on here a lot more updating my one woman's journey.