Why?

I am asking myself the question "why?" tonight! I sometimes don't know where my head goes when I am asked a question. I was asked if I could pick up a shift at work and I said yes. Little did I remember at that moment I would be staying awake for over 40 hours! I have no idea how I am going to function at school tomorrow. Why can't I say NO? Why do I always feel the need to make everyone else life easier? I do it, because I would hope they would do it in return for me. How true is that comment? Not very true. There are a small lump of people who would, but the rest are always only thinking about themselves. That is one thing I get so frustrated with, my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. We are suppose to live not of this world, yet most of us do. I include myself, because I still put some of the earthly things ahead of what is truly important. The most important thing, we as Christians be focused on, is loving God and loving others. So, should I stand up for my need to sleep and say No the next time someone asks me to work for them on a school night? Or do I say yes and lose sleep over it? Knowing me, I will probably be the later, but I am striving to be the first and still love others! Which seems impossible, but I am suppose to take care of myself first before I can help anyone else out. So, if I don't get the sleep I need, then how am I going to love others authentically?

I want to make my spiritual, health, and life more important than my co-workers because I am worth it and so are they if they want the real me. Worth, what does that even mean? Well, there are two ways it can go. It depends on what you believe in and what you have been told. If I go by what people have told me, I would consider myself worthless. Good thing I know now what God believes and that is I am worth it. He sent his One and Only Son to die on a cross for me, even though I don't deserve it (John 3:16)! He knew me before I was in my mother's womb! He even took the time to know how many hairs are on my head, and the amount I lose everyday! He loves me and is jealous for my love too. How great is that? To think that I know my Creator and he knows me. He even knows you, too! Do you know Him? Would you like to? Start seeking him and he will answer. Knock on his door and he will open it to you. All you have to do is ask! I would love to have you in my family with God, too.